My · Unfortunate · Journal

Since there is no option to comment this post is my response to your entry made on 08/11/2009 12:22pm. I have quoted the post as it was set to public.

"out of this whole thing, out of the several times you have edited your most recent public LJ post, removed and changed details, plead your case from every angle, tried to reel me and others back in by insisting that we contact the authorities to find out the truth - two things stand out very clear to me.
the first.  not once in those many edits have you said that you are planning on getting help.  you have not made any mention of this fact.  you do not seem to be planning on having any ongoing mental health plan in your life or seeing anyone about this.  this, to me, speaks volumes.

the second - well, i will simply cut and paste my own words;

as for the "truth" and versions of it - i dont care any more. i dont care what the truth is, but you should care that many people didnt believe you. haze, when you cry wolf for so long, it really hampers anyone's abilities to trust you, especially after you had backed up the details of what the nurse said about the circumstances behind your arrival. but what exactly happened and how you got there doesn't matter any more. the only thing that matters is that you do the right thing by yourself and get the help you need. it is not good enough for you to say that you're looking at the world with new eyes now. unless you get proper ongoing psychiactric help for this and the issues you have which led up to this, then i will never respect you and never believe that you ever wanted to get better.

this is it.  it continues to hurt me severely when you say things like the pepoe who have stood up to you in all of this are not really your friends.  in my opinion, these peoeple are some of the best friends you ever had, and it is very sad that so many people do not want to take any part in your life now, but sorry hun, that is all your own doing.

like i also said, i do not HATE you, so please stop saying it.  hate is reserved for those who deserve it, and you do not have my hate, only my pity.  but having my pity does not mean that i am going to be one of the ones to coddle you through this or act all impressed when you go showing your drip scars all around town or go to a nightclub the night after getting out of hospital.  to be honest hayley, i am utterly unimpressed at the amount of attention you are still trying to milk from this.  you've got people's attention, so use it to show them that you are SERIOUS about getting the help you need and sorting out your life, otherwise if you ever try something like this again...  well, i think you know deep down what you can expect.

i hope that one day we might be on terms where we can speak to each other again and perhaps socialise.  but from my end, it will be a very long time coming for me before i will feel comfortable with that.  as i have already re-iterated, i do not hate you and wish you all the best.  it's your choice as to which road you take from here on in... "

- She has made edits, but has not changed the facts, just adding and removing information and a FB post with vicious comments. It is also hypocritical, as you have deleted and edited posts.

- Aside from the fact that it isn't any of your business, have you actually called her and asked if she has or will be seeking counseling/assistance?. It doesn't need to be made public.

- You have been posting incorrect information publicly on the internet, she was trying inform you of what actually happened. She suggested that you contact the ambulance service because you pushed her into a corner, by refusing to accept her explanation and publicly implying she was a liar.

- I don't think you realise that a lot of what you have said sounds monstrous, of course she feels disliked at the very least. It doesnt look like your trying to help, it looks like you are viciously attacking her in public forum, which is not constructive, particularly at this time.

- None of the things you have said should have been said publicly. You need to show some consideration for other people. I was surprised that: either it did not occur to you, or you don't care that the things you have said would be hurtful and humiliating ina public forum.

- What she did had nothing to do with you, yet you are acting like what happened was done to personally upset you. You ungraciously refused her thanks for calling the ambulance that saved her life, it implies that you think she is below you. That would make anyone feel disliked.

- She has has publicly apologised for her actions and its affect. That is taking responsibility.

Selling some new and pre-loved clothes, i will be updating with more in about a week.

Prices are in AUS dollars and do not include postage. I am happy for pick-up or post, i am in Perth Metro area. I accept bank transfer, paypal and cash on pick-up.
I live in a smoke free, kitty friendly home, all items will be cleaned of any kitty fluff and ironed (if needed).

If you have any questions about measurements or further photos let me know. All measurements are take with garment laid flat.
( Click for looksie.... )( Clicky for pics... )( Click for looksie.... )If you dont like the asking price, feel free to make an offer :P


1. T.U.K Patent Mary Janes US 6, 4 inch heel, Purchased from Hot Topic, New in box - $60 ONO



2. SOLD. Lip Service PVC top,  Size XXL, would suit AU 14-16 B-C cup. Very stretchy, has fishnet under lacing on sides, zips up at back. Has been worn a couple of times by previous owner, excellent cond. $55 ONO.


3. Nimue's Latex, Custom made, high-waisted latex skirt. Has never been worn, has been stored powdered and loosely folded in a cool dry place (will need to be polished). Sad to sell...misjudged my measurements when i purchased it :(
Waist: 32cm, Hips: 44cm, Length: 69cm (including red frill).
$240 ONO.




4. Alannah Hill Silver satin skirt, Size AU14, waist 46cm, length 54cm. Excellent condition $35 ono.



5. Princess Highway pinstripe Knit dress, Finishes just above knee.Size AU 12. $35 ONO.



6. Covet Couture pencil skirt, Size XXL, Suit AU 14 - small 16. Skirt has loops for bondage straps, i lost the straps. Excellent condition. $40 ONO.



7. Target Georgia Plunge bra, AU 14D, NWT's, medium padding. $15.


 
8. No tags. Suit AU 12-14.  Stretchy, nude lining makes it look as though it is a lace shirt only. Pre-loved good condition $15 ono.


 
9. Emily The Strange T-Shirt. Suits AU 12-14. $15.



10. Gallery Serpentine singlet, Suit AU 10-14 (very stretchy). $10.


 
11. NOW Dress, AU 14, elasticated at back, fabric is stripey textured. $30.



12. SOLD. Size AU 14, stretchy, pre-loved excellent condition. $25.



13. No Tags. Suit AU 12- or smaller. pre-loved good condition. $15.



 
14. Valley Girl dress, Size AU 14, suite B-C cup, adjustable straps. Color is cream/off-white. $35.


 
15. Geisha Girl Pyjama bottoms, new without tags. AU 16. $10.



16. Black stretchy velvet dress, Label AU 10, will suit up to AU14. Comes to just above knees, approx 15cm splits on sides. $30.


 

Had the best weekend ive had in a long time, especially since i have been in bed for the last four weeks.

Went to supernova with Ross, Boxer and Garth, got some new toys :D

i also met Karl Urban, Dave Gibbons, Spike Spencer and hung out with Greg Cipes. Greg Cipes (Deadwood, Ben 10, teen tiatns) was an awesome guy, he even sung a song for me he wrote about Australia...well kinda, he kept forgetting the words lol.
I really wanted to get my Bones action figure signed , as karl Urban was running late back to the bus and we had to go Greg got it signed for me :D
Sunday we went down to the sheraton hotel to meet Greg, he signed my deadwood dvd and i got to say hi to some of the other supernova guests before Greg, Ross, my grandparents and i went for dinner. He was cool, we chatted about cartoons and movies and a new cartoon he's doing with his sister.
Dave Gibbons was really nice, he was all grandpa like, hard to believe he was the one drawing blue boy bits :P
So had a great weekend and made a new friend, who is going to take us out when we're in LA later this year.
( A few photos... )

Im a bit under the weather, think i have some sort of bug, but im all happy-sauce because i have four of the photos from the photoshoot with Jason Yay!
EDIT: I fought with Lj for about 15min trying to get the lj cut to work grr.

( More Photos... )

You can view the photos in larger size on Jasons Flickr - http://www.flickr.com/photos/tantaris/

From Boing Boing Gadgets, Posted by Mark Frauenfelder, April 28, 2009 12:57 PM: Video of police in Denmark stopping bicyclists, hugging them, and giving them helmets. Happiness all around.



This made me full of happy, and also giggles.

I is broke - Stuff for sale, mostly clothes :) (sizes 8 to 14)
All ending within next 24hrs.

http://shop.ebay.com.au/merchant/noishum

I have too many shoes i dont wear, so i figure sell them and buy new shoes :P (jk will pay my phone bill).

New Rock Ladies "Malicia" Boots (mid calf height), Have been worn 2-3 Times, excellent condition, Euro size 40/Aust size 9. Paid $295, asking $160 ono.

ZU Ladies "Baron" shoes, Patent leather, never worn, new in box, Aust size 8. Paid $140 asking $85 ono. *SOLD*

I am happy for pick up, im in Morley area or i can post at your expense :)

Due to my circumstances i am unable to keep my dog Ludo. It really hurts me to do this, ive cried so much, but he needs a new home. As most of you know ive had to move house rather rapidly and are only in temp accomodation till i can get an apartment, i cant afford a place that will allow a dog. I need to find Ludo a new home ASAP.

His name is Ludwig but i mostly call him Ludo.
He is 1.5yrs old.
He has medium length white and yellow hair.
He is a pomeranian X chihuahua approx 2-3kg.
He is only semi-toilet trained (due to when i was in between houses last time he couldnt go outside and had to use newspaper in laundry), he will go to the toilet outside, but has a bit of trouble when its raining or dark. If you lay down newspaper he will go on that.
He loves pats and to play fetch.
He can be a bit hyperactive, he gets excited easily and when excited he bounces instead of walking (very funny).
He sometimes will chew shoes, he only seems to do it if he's isnt getting enough attention or has lost all his toys, best way to avoid this altogether is put your shoes where he cant reach (so anywhere more than a foot off the grund lol).
He likes going for walks, but nothing too long (he can only do about 1km before he tires out).
He doesnt need a big outside area.
Only barks when someone is at the door- door bell that doesnt need batteries, off comand is "Ludo quiet".

heres a photo: http://www.new.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=272991&l=c4a3d&id=653107901
(sorry cant get into my flickr to imbed it)

i know ive made him sound like a bit of trouble, ive put his problems quite bluntly becuase i want his new family to know the worst of it, to make sure they can handle him. he is a nice dog, really sweet and loves to cuddle up to you and have pats and will follow you around the house.

If you or anyone you know is interested in adopting him and providing him with a loving home please email me at: libcreed at hotmail dot com. Im not asking any money for him, i just need to know that he will be looked after and loved, he has a lead, a bowl and 6 months worth of frontline flea treatment. If there are any problems at all you can contact me.

I only have till the end of this week to find him a home and then i will have totake him to the RSPCA :(

P.S. Futton- black metal frame, red mattress, fold down into double bed, has removable arm cushions for when using as couch, in good condition - $50 ono.

Im trying to get rid of a bit of clutter, i have a LOT more stuff i need to sell but this is some of it. Thought id put it on my LJ before ebay :P

Please excuse crappiness of photos as these were taken with my camera phone (with a crazy bright flash).

Prices do not include postage. I am happy to post anywhere or for people to pick up, i am located in Perth northern suburbs.

( pictures of stuffs )

A friend sent this to me... i think its cute and oh so hilarious...had to share :P

DOG DIARY

8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite!
9:30 am - A car ride! My favorite!
9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite!
10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite!
11:00 am - Went to the vet. Bummer.
12:00 pm - Lunch! My favorite!
1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favorite!
5:00 pm - Milk bones! My favorite!
7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favorite!
8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with people! My favorite!
11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favorite!

CAT DIARY

Day 983 of my captivity.

My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling
objects.

They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I
are Fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets.

Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I
nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my
strength. The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape.

In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet.


Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at
their feet.


I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it
clearly demonstrates what I am capable of . However, they merely made
condescending comments about what a 'good little hunter' I am.

Bastards!

There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices tonight . I
was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event.
However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my
confinement was due to the power of 'allergies.' I must learn
what this means, and how to use it to my advantage.

Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one
of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must
try this again tomorrow - but at the top of the stairs.

I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and
snitches.

The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released -
and seems to be more than willing to return. He is obviously
retarded.

The bird has got to be an informant. I observe him communicate
with The guards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move.
My Captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated
cell,so he is safe ----For now...

As I was in first three on someones LJ. First three people to comment i will send them something, something nice, or more likely something stupid/random. I at least promise to send something interesting/that i think you might like.

If you are in the first three people to post you have to do this on your LJ too.

OMG i am finally attuned for Karazhan, was halfway through attunment already (had first and second frag) and only took me seven hours of instances to finish.

Didnt finish till 5am, need to sleep now or i am certain ill die.

WHOOT! lots of Raiding for Beth now!

I have two $50 redstripe gift vouchers that i want to sell, need the money more than i need the clothes ^.^

if anyone is interested inbuying them PST me.

*edit: you know what i mean, leave a comment ^.^

well decided today to make my garden look pretty, so i went to bunnings to buy grass seeds, came home with grass seeds plus- orchids, sveral pertty flowering plants i dont know the name of, sweet corn seedlings, parsley, the start of my passion fruit vine and strawberry plants *grins*, my dad and ja's are currently putting bets on how long it will take for everyone of these plants to be destroyed by me, but i bought fertiliser and planting soil (and my very own watering can), im pretty confident that ill be able to keep something alive. In similar news i may be starting a job as a trainee Lab Tech, working for an enviromental research and conservation centre, its pretty cool, i will get to study the genetics of native pants and also will be required to breed them in a lab (HAHA testube babies MWAhahaha *mad scientist laugh*) they will send me one day a week to murdoch uni for training as well, i hope i get the job as at least i will feel like i am doing something useful and this job will always challange me (lots of problem solving ie, researching why a near extinct plant is not flourishing in its natural environment)...my god im boring.

I also impulse bought a bag of fire wood, so prob fri night will have people around to watch movies drink beer/wine and toast marshmallows on the open fire in my living room... i figure it will be a nice start to the weekend :)

ok so no batteries but i did happen to come accross a pic of Abby from NCIS wearing one of the same dresses im selling :)

*still waiting on help with putting pics in*

Price be: AUST$40.00 ONO (all offers considered- Barter me down, lol)
This dress is Tripp NYC, brand new with tags, retails at US$58.00
I have this dress in AUST sizes 12, 14 and two size 18's
NOTE: sizing is a big but straps are adjustable and back of dress has elastic.

will post more pics when i find batteries, so might be tomorow.

well moving house 3 months ago i did not realise how much clothes i dont wear often and have never worn, so i am selling a whole load of stuff, including a red shiny (i think satin) corset with stainless boning around a size 12+, i also have 3 boxes of new unworn tripp and lip service clothing (from when my dad was buying wholesale) everything i have in tripp and lip service is size 12+
Im also selling my hospital wear including sets of blue surgical scrubs (dont ask where i got them, lol)
so i will post photos of everything tonight, since i dont know how to use the camera or kow how to put photos on i have to wait till ja's gets home.

Club Voltaire,
Dark Alternative night will have its grand opening night on the 19th of May,
located on 434 william st, perth. 18+ no ID no entry.

The night will feature the musical stylings of Sumovaw, Intrasonic and Temple of Tears,
also contributing to noise will be star Djs Evac, Mikkali and Dan playing plenty of industrial, synthpop, EBM and more.
There will also be some early morning entertainment including Tantric firedancing.
Bands start at 11pm.

Doors open at 9pm-and you will be booted out at 6am
Entry will be a mere $10
Avalible will be a range of Absinth cocktails, Test Tube shots, Snakebite on tap and much more.

Its my Birthday this weekend, i shall be going to the Moon for dinner at 9,and then to sin after, all are welcome to come.
Blah it seemed this age would never come.

yay birthday drinking.